Deal of the Week - Starbucks

Hi Peeps,

Just a quick post, I have discovered a deal which is on until the 6th May which I think you may all be interested in...

Through the Starbucks app this week you are able to get 50% off your order when you order ahead, all you need is the app, some credit loaded onto it and a store which accepts pre-orders (most major branches do). I ordered a coffee and a toastie for lunch today, I got them for half price and they were ready for me as soon as I walked in!

Definitely a deal worth knowing about, also if you order for the first time through the app this week you get double points for the rest of the week on purchases. Double the points and half the cost! It's a good week for a Starbucks pre-order!

Just a super quick post got lots to do tonight. I hope you are all well, catch up properly soon.

xx

A blue day

Ever have one of those just unknown days that creeps up on you? You just feel a little numb and there is no rhyme or reason to it? I'm having one of those today. Absolutely no need for it I have had a really nice and relaxed weekend, but for some reason today my head is just elsewhere. I have tried to concentrate on all sorts of different things today but it's just no good.

Now I know that this makes for a fairly depressing read, after all you should know by now I am the positive one. The person that will always seek to point out the silver lining to every miserable situation or day. But today is just a 'meh' today - the best way that I can think to describe it. But I know that a lot of people know what 'meh' days feel like.

I have been doing a lot of soul searching as you all know from previous posts, but today I just feel like a little bit of a lost cause (I know right? Get the tiny violin out for me please). What is it that we should all focus on to snap us out of a funk when we get into one? Just decide that today isn't the day to face the world and go back to bed? But that would surely carry it on? Head out and try to be social - one of the things that you probably least feel like doing. So as always what is it that we revert to? An outlet of some kind, now everyone has their own, mine just happens to be creative. Hence why I am sat here writing this. Whatever your outlet be it running, singing, driving whatever it may be immerse yourself in it. The sun will always rise again tomorrow.

x

Raw Emotions

Several things have happened recently in my life. Things which have evoked raw emotions. The kind of emotion that you don't come across very often in your life (especially if you aren't a particularly emotion person on an every day basis).

All this raw emotion of course lead to me thinking, how often do people feel raw emotion? And are there many people who allow themselves to feel it whole heartedly?  I am very in touch with my deep emotions and can very much keep them in check. However not so good at my surface, everyday emotions, and sometimes struggle to keep these in check - I have a rubbish poker face!

But how do all the people who don't allow themselves to feel raw emotion cope? Do they constantly shut things away and say that enough is enough and that they aren't going to allow themselves to feel anything?

I have witnessed traumatic situations, dealt with heartache and felt the dull numb that you get when your world feels like its falling apart. So what keeps us going? Another set of emotions, the ones that I like to cling to and elevate on a daily basis. The emotions that will always trump the trauma, the disbelief, heartache and pain. - Hope, love and joy. There's a reason why we do things and there is always a feeling that we have that spurs us on. It's the hope that things will get better, hope for things to become what we dream of, hope that tomorrow or next week or next year are going to be our year. Love for the people around us, love for our talents and passions, love of life and all that it brings. And of this of course will lead eventually to joy & happiness.

If you, like several people I know at the moment, are reading this and feeling the first set of emotions, pain, particularly if you are feeling numb then I promise you it won't be too long until you feel hope again. You have to get through the pain to come out the other side. It is always darkest just before the dawn. Find the one thing that sets your soul on fire. That passion that makes you come alive, hold on to it, cherrish it and use it to spur you on. And on the days where you don't feel positive and you are struggling to see past the pain and upset, turn that into your fuel to move forwards and make a difference. If we never move forwards we would never grow as individuals. How could you ever be the best version of yourself if you didn't grow?

I heard a wonderful saying that I will live by for the rest of my life. People are like mirrors, its always the shattered ones with all the cracks that reflect the most light.

Our hard times, upset and cracks are the things which make us an individual and give us our own story. The people who have been through the most traumatic of things who have slowly pieced themselves back together often make for the best individuals that you will ever meet.

So next time you experience blinding heartache or numb pain as your world falls apart just remember broken mirrors always reflect the most light back into the world.

.x.

Decisions & Relationships

How do we ever make decisions about opportunities, or things which we deem are needed? Perhaps you're a list maker (I definitely am), or perhaps you are a fly by the seam of your pants type of person? Does your tactic change depending on the situation that you are presented with?

And once a decision has been made and you have or are living with the result of your choice, how do you judge if you made the right decision? Again is that based on a feeling? Or do you logically assess your rationale and qualify the outcome as being correct?

We are all unique, no two people are the same. We each have our own personalities and perceptions of the world around us - something which we are all guilty of sometimes forgetting.

The reason all of this has surfaced as a thought and a subsequent blog is due to an anniversary in my life of a controversial decision. One that divided the people who were in my life at the time. There are times in our lives where we need to make decisions which won't be popular but that we have deemed as needed, by which ever of the above tactics you used. But how do we make others see that there is a reason behind this, one that is so important to you that it really does matter, so much so that your heart and soul need it?

I would like to say that I am a selfless person (its a trait that runs in the family). Not completely selfless, I have never cut my hair for charity or done anything overly extreme for the good of others (I take my hats of to those who do). But we (the family members) can be selfless to those around us sometimes to our own disadvantage. So how, (when it doesn't come naturally) do you try to make someone understand that for just this rare occasion you need to make a decision that is solely for you? That's a hard conversation to have, and one that doesn't sit comfortably with the receiver.

If you have ever been at a turning point in your life such as this you will understand what I mean. It's the conversation that can divide people, to the point where you will find out who is really there to support you, and who was just along for the ride.

Also, once you have wrapped your head around all of the above, what do you do when someone from the past suddenly appears, or continues appearing intermittently and you don't know what to do? Do you make a list? Do you quantify the options? Or do you go with the heart - the one thing that pushed you to make a life changing decision in the first place?

Food for thought

E .x.

It's one of those days

Do you ever have those days when you just feel a little bit meh... no particular reason you just don't feel particularly amazing? I'm having one of those days today.

I have just had a week off of work and have spent the whole week chilled out, I think it's just the reality that tomorrow it is back to the normal manic routine! Also I have spent quite a few days looking at my living room thinking that it's not how I want it yet. But I can't decide how it will look for me to be completely happy with it! I need a desk that's for sure! I spend far too many hours moving books on and off my dining table and enough is enough. I need to just admit that I need to make a small home office / desk sanctuary! Therefore I am off to IKEA shortly to see what I can get to create a miniature office!

Other than that its just a meh day, not really feeling myself today. I seem to have lost all energy and motivation. 

You never know if the office turns out ok and I like the look of it I may post a little picture on here... we'll see.

I hope you are having a most inspired and happy weekend than me!

E .x.